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1-22-08 The Fractal Edge of Astrology: Psychological, Coincidence or Real?

So let’s start today’s discussion by reflecting a bit upon the fractal edge of astrology – what it means or doesn’t mean – what it relates to or doesn’t.

Let’s set the celestial stage for a personal example and in so doing expand the topic. At present Jupiter is moving in a T-Square to my chart. Specifically he is in early Capricorn (tropical style not sidereal. (See ) When I was born Mars was moving retrograde in my 11th House, above the horizon at the top of my horoscope. Opposite Mars (exact to 1º) was the Dragon’s Head, i.e. the Moon’s Nodes, in Aires. This means that my natal Mars was on the Dragon’s Tail when I was born. The solution to this particular relationship is receptivity. Don’t fight for it will backfire. I consider this a positive with respect to women for it confers vulnerability. And I consider this a negative with regards to career – never able to take charge. So I think of this relation as the waiter side of my chart. Receptive to the demands of the Guests I am able to take care of their needs with little or no ego involvement. So on another side learning to deal with this configuration has taught me to temper my Ego – which is another plus. But initiative? None whatsoever. Any outward movement is repelled by an almost repulsive magnetic field. It happens before I’m even aware of it. This could also be attributed to being closeted by my father when I was a toddler – for disturbing the peace – which could have been fated due to the Mars/Nodes opposition. But whatever the reason I haven’t been able to market any of my myriad talents, which are displayed here on my website for all to see.

Anyway (I use this word to move back to the topic.) at present Jupiter is in the worst possible relation to these two celestial forces; he is in conflict with both of them from January 20th ->26th. So in anticipating this influence I suspected work, health or mood problems because both Mars and Jupiter is involved. I hoped that it would just have to do with depression due to slow business. I felt that I could handle that pretty well. Little did I suspect that external circumstances, somewhat foreshadowed or reflected by the astrology of the time, would threaten my career, health, and even life. Little did I suspect that I would contemplate a career change or that I would be given the choice between living with all the inherent miseries or dying into a state of ultimate tranquility. Little did I suspect that the answers to these questions would change, or at least refresh and reinforce, my attitude towards pain.

Without giving anything away I am going to continue my exploration into the roots of astrology. In terms of the rationale behind fortunetelling there is the attitude embraced by the intelligentsia, which includes part of myself, that astrology is merely a type of placebo – the power of projection or positive thinking – that it has nothing to do with the reality of external circumstances – except as we read meaning into the associations exhibited between celestial patterns and random events. (This is the basis of Omenology) This makes lots of rational sense – which is regularly contradicted by direct experience.

So proceeding along these rational lines I reflect on the astrological configurations and attempt to give advice that is as good as possible – clean of personal Ego and attachments to the world of Maya – the swirl of external phenomenon. When I saw this influence coming up I tried to remain positive – interpreting the influence as an internal attack on my morale, which was virtual with no substance in physical reality. “After all what effect could the dissonance of these planets have on my life?” my rational Brain thought to himself. And seeing as how he is regularly in charge, he convinced the others that what he said was true. Of course some of my other selves remained in opposition saying, “Perhaps, but despite negativity and projection we’ve seen many external manifestations which had nothing to do with negative thoughts.” – “What are you referring to?” you might ask. – “Root canals. Anal infections. And a destroyed leg. These are not mental projections. Further nearly anyone would interpret these as negative external events. Nothing subjective about it.” - “But, but, but … it just doesn’t make any rational sense. These are just coincidence which you’ve attributed with meaning. Nothing more or less. We might have some virtual problems, but external difficulties unlikely. And if so, probably just another one of those pesky anomalies.”

Overwhelmed by the logic the majority stuck with the Left Brain, with only a handful of dissenters remaining – too few to exert any real power.

So as the celestial misalignment approached (say the 2nd week in January) the Left Brain seemed to have the upper hand. “See told you so. What could possibly happen? You will probably just be infected by the Person fever because not enough people checked out your website and you’re stuck in a dead end job where you’re under-stimulated – where your extraordinary talents are unrecognized and utilized. You loser. How did you get trapped in such a predicament? You’re afraid of living and preparing to die. You’re hiding in your little cave – just peeking out long enough to become terrified of your own shadow.” – “Hey! Just one minute. You are turning into a self-fulfilling prophecy. You predict a bad mood and then attempt to create one with your negativity.” – “Yeah see! I was right about these morale problems. That’s the only meaning of the negative planetary transit by Jupiter. Nothing external whatsoever.”

So as we get closer I must work 5 shifts including a Wine Room and Banquet – both of which are incredibly wearing on my body. But I make it through. And then … .